The Randomness

It's August and I feel like I am on the other side of this suffering (depression and anxiety). I feel more alert, today at least. Today I write because I am happy. I write because I am free. Nothing big happened, that the naked eye can see, but something within shifted. I feel it. I feel the ease in my mind, the chatter is minimal and I am avoiding all things negative. Ok fine, most things negative. I am ready to visualize the next stage of my life. Visualization is not my thing at all, but am learning that I have to train the muscle until it's flexible. I have to be silent and alone and mind emptied, for me to start inputting. It's not easy but can be done. I have been practicing. My thoughts will be random but will get solid as I go on. I have not written in three years. I can be forgiven. Here's to more days filled with ease and joy! I will no longer keep my posts in draft mode, no matter how ridiculous the topic